I just can’t seem to find myself lately,
Where did I go?
I have never felt a pain quite like this before.
My heart just wants to fall out over and over and over,
and maybe I will let it.
Maybe that is what is supposed to happen.
Maybe, I am not as strong as I once was.
Damn this world for chipping away at everything I once was.
Damn it all.
All of it,
It’s a pit in the bottom of my stomach,
And it’s in my throat and swells up in my eyes and makes my heart crumble and my hands sweat and my body weak and it’s everywhere and you are no where and I just cannot find you anymore.
I just don’t understand how I can possibly still miss you,
But tonight I do. And it is eating away at my heart.
Fighting to keep myself afloat,
But I’m afraid that I’m already drowning.